Friday, July 31, 2009

Raianne Hope Permaul

Amy and I have been together for a long time. Ever since the beginning, we have been husband and wife. Even though the love we have for one another was and is very strong, something has always been missing. Our circle was not complete. On March 25th, Amy told me I was going to be a dad and on that day, the circle began to close. As each day went on, the circle got closer and closer to being complete. A few weeks later, I went to one of Amy's doctors appointments. It was the day I would hear her heartbeat for the first time. As I sat in the exam room listening to the doctor putting the Doppler on her belly I didn't hear what I was expecting and I started to get worried. Then I remembered something that Jill told me; it would sound like a choo choo train. As I sat and listened, there it was. My little choo choo was chugging away. The circle got closer to being complete. During the next few weeks things changed, choo choo grew and developed, and we found out choo choo was going to be a girl. Her name would be Raianne Hope Permaul. People have said everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for everyone on this planet. Well, I think part of her plan was to bring two separate families together to make one. I guess her and God were in a hurry to get to work. She decided to come early. She was born on July 25th, four months early. I became a dad, Amy became a mom , our moms and dads became grandparents, and our brothers and sisters became aunts and uncles. For that short time that she was with us, our circle was completed. After she was gone from our world, I wondered why. Why give her to us just to take her back. I think Amy put it best when she told me that we had created something so perfect and pure that God needed her back. So I thank God for letting Amy and I create a perfect angel. Now our little angel of hope is up there watching over all of us. To all of our family and friends, never give up hope and don't let hope slip away because without hope, the circle would never have been completed.

It won't be like this for long

Memorial Service for Raianne Hope Permaul
August 8, 2009 ~ 11:00 AM
Oviedo Presbyterian Church ~ 2405 Lockwood Boulevard
Oviedo, FL 32765
Pastor Paul Ogne, Officiating

21 comments:

Unknown said...

For the little while you were with us, my world changed forever. I never thought that you would have such an impact on my life as you did. I know in my heart that I now have a true Guardian Angel. I will forever cherish your memory.

Gran Pa Ray

Marilyn said...

Even though I never got the opportunity to see or meet you, know that the thought of you entering into my life was a happy one. For you will always be in my heart and have my love.
May God keep you in his glory always.

Aunt Marilyn

Jacqui said...
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Jacqui said...

In my life I have had many loved ones go to join our father. I thought I knew how to deal with grief and it's pain. However, on July 25, 2009, along came
"Raiann Hope Permaul"
I thought I knew the feeling of love and it's pain, but I was wrong.
As I held you close to my heart and said, "Hello, Happy Birthday and Farewell", my heart broke, the love and pain was overwhelming. My friend Pam said, "Don't cry for you all have had the HONOR to have held One of GOD'S ANGELS".
Raiann, I love you and you will be in my heart forever. Your daddy and mummy said, you were going to call us Gumbeau and Gumbee and that we will be forever to only You.

Gran Ma Jacqui aka Gumbee

Rhett said...

My Darling Raiann
For us you will always, be the first.
The First Daughter.
THe First Grand Child.
My First Niece.
My First God Daughter.
As your god-Father, I will always keep you loved, safe and protected in my heart forever.
I miss the things we would have done together. Like...driving fast in my Red Mustang, you in your babyseat giggling with the wind in your face.(Our secret don't tell mummy and daddy)
Ohhh My Raiann, I love you and miss you so much.
Love, Hugs and Kisses

Your Uncle Rhett aka Your G-Daddy

Anonymous said...

my little hope angel i love and miss you so much
love
Dad

Momma said...

Baby, I thank God everyday for letting me and Daddy have you. I cherish every memory that I have of you, knowing you were there first, feeling your movements first, holding you and saying hello and goodbye first, and everything in between. I miss you everyday from now until the end. I can only imagine the things you are doing right now and I hope you keep a special eye on your Momma and Daddy. I know I have nothing to worry about because you are being raised by angels. I love you and miss you and can't wait until I can see you again. Love, Momma

Ashley Mikell said...

Sweetest Raiann,

I have known your daddy for a very long time, and as childhood friends we have watched each other grow and meet the two people who we thought would make our lives more complete. When I see your mommy and daddy together, I am reassured that my good friend (your daddy) had made the best choice for him because he always seems the happiest when your mommy is around. But it wasn't until he told me about you that I saw him the happiest I have ever seen him.

They say that God has a plan for every person and even though I am not fully sure of what it was suppose to be for you; for the short time you were here you gave your mommy and daddy the greatest feeling of joy they may ever experience. You are now and forever will be in our hearts.
Love,
Ashley Mikell
(friend of Mommy and Daddy)

Gampy said...

My little Angel, Our God gave You to Us for a very short time, to hold in our arms and to be loved for now and for ever in Our hearts. You know first hand the Love of our "Awesome God", for now You are part of His Heavenly Family of Angels. Thou You are not here with us to grow and to be nurtured by your Mommy and Daddy, You will always be our first born granddaughter and bundle of joy. Your Gampy has cried many tears for you and for your Mommy and Daddy. Our family's will get on with their lives and You will always be in our hearts and there will never be a day that goes by my little Raianne Hope that we don't think of you and wish You were here with us.God has a reason for You to be with Him and not with us. We must trust in Him. Help your Daddy to be at peace with that and one day we will all be together with you in the Lord's House. May God give us All strength to over come our loss of you. Love Gampy

Aunt Jamie said...

For the most precious Angel out there. I never got to see or hold you but I miss you so dearly.I never could stop thinking or talking about you.I know that you are in heaven in very good hands with god and your loved ones.I know that we all miss you down here,but God had much better plans for you up with him.I know that we will have you watching down on all of us, keeping us safe and out of harms way.Raianne hope you were the 1st and best niece that I have had so far.We never heard your first tiny cry
never wiped the teardrops from your eyes
And though our hearts grieve, and we are bereft
We carry your teardrops, they are all we have left...
We carry them with us, tucked next to our heart
Your memory with us always, we are never apart


Aunt Jamie

Gampy said...

First Time Ever I Saw your Face

The first time I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your face
And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the end of the skies

And the first time ever I kissed you
I felt the earth move in my hand
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love

And the time ever I held you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last, till the end of time, my love, Raianne hope

The first time ever I saw your face
Your face
Your face
Your face

Love Gampy

Gampy said...

To my butterfly:

I long to feel the soft weight of you
to welcome you home, with kisses on silk round cheeks

Instead my arms ache with the weight of your absence,
the empty places that were meant for you to grow into

My love for you will last an eternity.
My hopes and dreams now carried on the fragile wings of each butterfly passing compelling me to pause, to savour each moment,
each flutter in my heart-your wings

Love Gampy

Gammy said...

Amy and Raymond, THANK YOU for the wonderful gift of Raianne Hope. Though she was only with us a short time she left a great impact on us. She gave us many special firsts: First daughter, first granddaughter, first neice, first pregnancy, first sonogram, first ultrasound, first heartbeat heard and I am sure there are many more that I cannot think of now. We will have these with us forever. She will always be with us, always in our hearts. I am truly grateful for her being in my life. I have a special letter below just for my
"little peanut".

What a song began in my heart when Amy first told me about you, a note of excitement bubbling over. I could not help but fall in love just waiting....

I knitted blankets of hopes, dreamed countless adventures, imagined bright sunny days at the park, your first ice cream cone melting down you little fists.

My arms readied themselves, I waited on edge, longing for the day when your first cries would break the air, and I would be there to soothe, to rock, to lullabye you to sleep...

I could not be prepared for the next measure--your mother's voice broken, her heart, our hearts sore and raw with the loss of you. Our arms helpless to soothe, to rock away her pain.

Oh little Raianne Hope, what plans we had, what delicious dreams, what joy you brought in your small space. Your tiny footprints will be carried with us with a new rhythm in our hearts.

Love, Gammy

Jude said...

No words can ever express the loss of one so dear. Our heartfelt prayers go to you and your entire family for the loss of Rainne. Sometimes we cannot comprehend why things happen in our lives, however we must always keep our faith and lean on God's everlasting love for strength. Rainne is truly loved and she will be in your hearts forever.

Jude McKnight and Effie Cobbs

Anonymous said...

There is a bright new star in the heavens that will always brighten the sky. Beautiful baby girl Raianne Hope, you brought such love and beauty to this world in the short time you were here, but, maybe God felt you were too pure and precious to stay and brought you back home to live among the other angels. Your bright light will watch over and protect your loved ones for all eternity until the word is given when your loving family will once again be united with you. God Bless You Little One.
Love, "Aunt" Donna

Auntie K said...

A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
And for a brief moment its glory
and beauty belong to our world
But then it flies again
And though we wish it could have stayed...
We feel lucky to have seen it.

Guy, Jennie & Corey Forsythe said...

Although no words can really help to ease the loss you bear, just know that you are very close in every thought and prayer.

Raianne Hope, will be missed, but may you take comfort in knowing that an angel is watching over you.

May the comfort of God help you during this difficult time.

Jennie, Guy & Corey Forsythe

Anonymous said...

For Raianne's families - we were not able to come to the funeral on Saturday, but wanted you to know that you were in our thoughts and prayers. We ask for God's blessings that HE may give you hope and strength and that your faith remain strong.
Friends of Mike & Kathi

The Schaubel Family said...

We are so very sorry to hear of your loss of Raianne. Our prayers and thoughts have been with all of you since Mike called. She will forever be in your hearts, and will forever be looking down on you and telling you she is okay where she is.

God Bless all of you.

Marilyn said...

My baby girl, I can not believe that one year has passed since you entered and left our lives. I always think of you and ask that God keeps you in his glory. We had a butterfly release for you today. Grandpa Ray, Me, daddy, momma, grandma Jackie and Uncle Rhett as well as the rest of the family and friends came together to memorialize you for we miss you and love you. We would have preferred that you were here with us in body, but we know you were here in spirit. Just know that you will never be forgotten and will forever be missed. I love you always!
Aunt Marilyn

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